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I hate this time of year. I hate it this year more then any other. Getting into the spirit of holidays to come, christmas trees, dinners, family gatherings. I'm really happy for all that can go home to their families and just spend a nice dinner beeing surrounded by your closest people. This is shit season for me, I haven't felt this way ina while tho, cuz before this I had a little family. Now, I have to figure something out formyself. I hate beeing alone but during this season I have no choice, all my friends will be with their families, spending nice cozy nights at home watching movies .... dam I hate america. My frustration grows bigger and stronger. I'm tired ... I want to go back, to the days where I waited and marked my calendar for the days where I would escape to heaven, for thos grove nights with fake snow and waiting by the fountian for the movie. Falling asleep with legs crossed. Dam I'm back into that ...... I hate how I have feelings, ihate ho I have noone. Thank god I'm here tho, time to travel up to the goood ol beach, time to be together with my granpa.